It's Morning....

7 am and what am I doing? Wide awake staring at my phone debating if I want to send the boo a good morning text. I'm such a dork sometimes. I mean the house is so peaceful and quiet right now, I'm really loving this. Nothing like the usual excitement that I wake up to thanks to the girl. I can get with this. Maybe I will make this my routine to get up and relax in bed with a book or blog a little. I am determined to use this versus people to be my journal,considering the latter can be very fickle sometimes.What do I have to do today? Absolutely NOTHING! No plans whatsoever. Well no, cancel that I am going to apply for that job at Cherry Point. It's right up my alley something in administration with room to grow I don't want to be overzealous and take on the executive assistant job that I really want to go after right now because I want to be able to focus on the girl as always but also because I want to focus on making this move and our adjustment to this move a good one and with that job there is no way that can happen when you're basically a hip attachment to a super busy CEO. So I will be happy with admin for now. It seems as if I'm falling into a stereotype or something the man of the house has the manly bread winning job (USMC) and I'll have the girlie job that's there to keep me busy and give me some F.U.N. money and maybe help out with a couple bills. For the first time I'm actually cool about this. Ican't believe that I'm allowing myself to trust a man enough to provide for me and the girl! This my friends is a huge step for me and I'm so excited to be taking this step with the boo. He's a really really good man. The kind of man that I deserve after all the bullcrap I've been through. It's so funny because now that I have him it's like so hard to keep my mind from thinking up crazy thoughts about him, it's almost like I don't know how to function in a healthy relationship. We've haven't had a huge blowout argument yet so that's good, I haven't busted him cheating, he actually loves the girl, I mean things are good. Now that we're moving in together I think this will help soothe my fears about him waking up one morning and deciding he doesn't want to be with me. ( Trust me from 1sthand experience that blows) Right now it seems as if I'm the fight of my life relationship wise because I have what I want in the boo and I'm happy but I can't seem to get myself to stop preparing for the worst or opening up completely. It's like the minute I do some crazy thought enters my mind and then it's a wrap! Everyday it's a daily battle for me. I have nothing but trust and faith in this man and I love him like I've loved no other and as far as i'm concerned he's it for me. There will be noone else after him. I've figured out a great way to fight this war against my own insecurity, I just constantly remind myself that he loves me and he loves the girl. He sent me the sweetest text the other day, "Babe all you have to do is say the word and it's a wrap, nothin comes before you in my life. U matter more to me than anything babe.." So needless to say, I saved that and I love to go back and read that whenever my mind wants to screw with me. I'm telling you, Grandma wasn't lying when she would say idle minds are the devils playground. Now that my only focus during the day are the girl and my NPO it's easy to get distracted. So between that and JuJu I'm good.Ok let me get off my back and go to the desk maybe that will help me get the energy up to apply for some jobs. The quicker I find a job the quicket I can get to work on the move or just move. Great!